I haven’t spoken to somebody that I do normally in, well I don’t know how long. It’s weird. I miss them but then I don’t. Of course I care about them but it’s a bit like what? I was quite drunk last night and I have to give myself a pat on the back for not even drunk texting them. Anyone that knows me, will know that means a lot. I tend to drunk text a lot of people I care about. In the end I had a really good night. I woke up this morning though and realised I hadn’t spoken to them in a while.

Now, I know we’re not meant to over think etc etc BUT I have started thinking, do I want to talk to them? Like I have no idea what is going on in their life, which I’m cool about, but I still want to half know if they’re okay and what not. It’s a weird feeling isn’t it? I think I’ve come to the conclusion, I’m not going to make first contact. I know I said to them I feel uncomfortable talking to them with a situation changing but I don’t think they want to talk to me as well? I mean if they did they would have contacted me right? I’m overthinking this and need to go back to what I was doing. The american girl that I’ve got a little close to is leaving and it’s really kinda sad. Maybe I should give her my full attention instead of watching football and writing this blog. It sort of puts life into order though when people you care about depart for the other side of the world. I wonder if anyone will feel the same about me when I leave?