I hardly write on this now because I’ve realised if you want to change things you have to go out and change it. It isn’t going to change by itself. Writing about it on here allows me to realise anger or confusion or whatever emotion I’m feeling at the time but it won’t change what is happening.
I don’t want to lose people but at the same time I have to allow them to choose the choices they want to make. Life is a lot easier at the moment. It’s confusing but it seems right. I know what direction I’m heading in.
The one point I remember recently though is that I can’t let the people that care go. If we all did that it could be a very lonely world. There’s been points in my life when I did push those people away when I needed them more than ever. Yes, new people came into my life but you just wonder what if? I won’t let it happen again.